# Anger, Anxiety and Agency

Sean Goedecke wrote a post arguing that [you should never be angry at
work](https://www.seangoedecke.com/you-should-never-be-angry-at-work/) — a post
with which I strongly agree.  Anger can be a useful signal, but being angry at
work rarely improves the situation.  More often, it makes life worse for the
people around you, many of whom have no more power over the source of your anger
than you do.  I did learn that lesson, but it did not come naturally.  One thing
in particular that I learned is that in a company there is a shared vision, and
if you don't agree with it and are not in a position to change it, you should
not start a mutiny, not even a small-scale one.  Nothing good comes from that.

In the discussion around that topic, one of the most upvoted comments on the
[Lobsters thread](https://lobste.rs/s/mbmn1f/you_should_never_be_angry_at_work)
asked a question I had to think about quite a bit:

> How can you work in tech right now and *not* be angry?

In the context of the thread, this was clearly also about AI and agents.  For
me, the emotions I would expect in tech vis-a-vis these new developments are
disorientation and anxiety, but not anger.

Anxiety as an emotion does not require someone to blame.  Right now, I find it
reasonable to feel anxious about an uncertain future.  Who knows what our
professions will turn into and what kind of world my kids will find themselves
in when they enter the workplace?  And if you've been in the industry for a long
time, will the skills you've spent years acquiring still matter?

But anger is different from anxiety because anger needs to be directed
somewhere.  The feeling of anger suggests that somebody or something is doing
something *to you*.

Who are you going to be angry at and why are you angry in the first place?  One
narrative that is pretty pervasive is that if AI will usher in productivity
gains, those gains are going to benefit companies rather than employees.  And
well at least [someone at Meta
wants
that](https://thenextweb.com/news/meta-bosworth-ai-productivity-more-work-not-time-off).
Yet I also find that plenty of people in leadership positions express doubt
about AI.  They see that an increasing share of their costs is being funneled
directly to some large AI labs.  They express worries about what will happen to
their data and whether these large companies will step into their space instead
of being partners.

My answer to the question of how you can not be angry in tech is that it's by no
way the most only possible feeling.  First of all, instead of being angry, you
can simply be unsure.  The feeling of uncertainty is a much more productive
emotional state because it can lead to curiosity.  Even if you don't find what's
happening right now exciting, you can at least find it interesting.  We have
access to magic machines, and we can poke at them and see what happens.  The
second way is to feel genuine excitement.  Once you move beyond curiosity, you
can come away with a newfound feeling of power and freedom.  A lot of the gains
from AI aren't turning into productivity gains that are reflected in company
profits but they're showing up instead in the number of side projects shipped by
everybody not on their company's time.

The fact that this is happening shows us that owners and founders don't
necessarily know what will happen.  Ownership comes with agency, but it does not
provide foresight, and this change is disorienting for everybody.  I engage with
plenty of people who project confidence in public and are much less certain in
private.  Many of them are placing bets, but they are talking with confidence
about those bets, trying to stay afloat while the ground moves under them.  They
experience that uncertainty from a position where they can act on it, and they
are often standing somewhere with a megaphone to get others on their side to
increase their odds.

I feel that contradiction myself.  I am simultaneously tremendously excited, but
I am also unsure what will happen next.  I do not know what it will mean to be a
programmer in the future, and, as the owner of a company, I am also not sure
where the high ground will be when this all settles.  Much of what I learned
over the years is changing rapidly, including ideas I considered fundamental to
my craft and business.  Some days that feels liberating, but on others I wake up
feeling like the ground is crumbling beneath me.

Anxiety is an uncomfortable emotion because it acknowledges that you do not know
what will happen and might not be able to stop it.  On the other hand, anger can
feel more actionable because, instead of saying "I don't know," you already have
someone to blame.  It turns a loss of control into a comforting story with a
villain.  But I feel that particularly when it comes to AI, it's easy to pick
the wrong villain because of how disruptive the change is for everyone.  Your
engineering manager or leadership team might themselves feel uncertain about
their future and just try to bolster their own confidence by projecting clarity
and certainty.

That does not mean there are no villains.  When this all plays out, some will
profit and many will not.  I'm afraid we're completely ignoring the impact this
has on society at large, the climate, and the balance of the world as a whole.
As excited as I am about the technology, I worry about Europe's lack of ambition
and growing dependence on other countries.  I have a lot of complex thoughts
about what we're doing as an industry right now.

I don't know what the future of this industry will look like, and I don't know
who will benefit from it and I don't think I'm alone with that.  However I can
only urge anyone who feels anger and looks for a villain right to instead remain
curious instead.  To be curious enough to understand what is changing, excited
enough to experiment with it.  And then, from what we learn, earn the right to
decide when resistance is warranted and where to direct it.